Awakening

For more than half my life I have been searching for answers, the same answers that I believe we all have questions to, that we all seek for. I have experienced my own hard knocks in life and I cannot say that I would be the same person today if I had not gone through those. I believe that to be true for everyone. Our experiences, choices and people whom we have met and dealt with all become part of who we are, who we will become. Call it karma or what you will but the more good you do, the more good that gets out there and touches others. We, in a sense do become our brother's keeper. For how we interact with the person next to us influences how they interact with the people they encounter. This is where ONE does make a difference. Wouldn't you rather you had only good experiences and encounters versus negative ones? I am still amazed that even with all the hardships and bad experiences in my life I have found courage to go on. I keep trying to find the good and love in everyone. I hope that you do too.
It doesn't matter how one comes to an awakening of mind, body and spirit. All I know is that it is urgently needed. Perhaps you, like myself delved into what may occur in 2012. And, if so you are probably left with more questions than answers. I cannot say for certain that this will happen on this day. I do know that this is a time of transformation. Not just of myself but for all of mankind. Things need to change. How do we make the change? The transformation? We open our eyes and demand the truth, demand changes. Truth about everything. We make changes in ourselves so that we may help awaken others. We stop being afraid of others and give acceptance and love. For people in control and power with many material things in this life, this will be hard to do. I am uncertain how everything will come together, I just know it will. We have the technologies in place to end hunger, to give shelter to those in need and stop the wars. When we stop trying to gather the most and stop trying to control and become our brother's keeper and do good for the whole race, we will evolve. We are all born with natural talents and gifts and we all would love to use them. We need to use all of this for the betterment of the human race, not for gathering the Earth's resources and trying to be the biggest, baddest thing out there.
There needs to be a spiritual revolution...evolution. A revolution not of guns and wars but of love and acceptance. And, there needs to be a religious tolerance. Everyone needs the right to seek God in their own way, to choose their own path as long as they finally get it.
LOVE
ACCEPTANCE
COMPASSION

Humans need to to realize that we are all connected through a spiritual vibration...an energy. This leads to an understanding that this same energy flows throughout the Earth, and throughout the Universe. Think about it, why else do plants, animals and even ourselves have such emotional and chemical reactions to the vibrations of music? The awakening that occurs when you finally get it, when you finally FEEL it is phenomenal.
I believe that one of the first emotions felt after you start to awake is one of anger. Anger towards the ones in control and power. This you must forgive, even thank...for if you had not been asleep and under control, you could never be awakened. Meditate upon or even pray that you may forgive. We must lead by example...an example of love and forgiveness.
It is not going to be easy to teach someone that the ring on their finger is worth less than a person on another continent in need of food and shelter. But, I am telling you that the majority out there are awakening and do know that as long as we have the basics covered, the rest can go to our brother or sister who is in need. That if it meant saving this planet we would gladly give up what was needed to set it right. You need to really hear this, you are given a choice to conserve to use less to make you feel like you have any kind of control. It is only an illusion. The real control of conservation is to not use it at all! In example, if everyone on one single day all stopped at once, we would cripple nations and bring them to their knees...PEACEFULLY! All you would have to do is make a choice for all of not to shop, buy gas, use your car or electric on the same exact day. But those in power do not want this to happen, it would cost them too much money. I say that you cannot put a price on saving this planet. Could you do it? Would you do it?

Fear

This is probably the single most important topic that I can discuss with you. because, if you refuse to open your eyes and see how FEAR controls almost everything in our lives, you will never awaken. One semester, I was doing research for a college paper on what I saw as a troubling theme in advertisement. I called it fear based advertising. For weeks I did nothing but watch commercials and review print adds. I found 98% of them were fear based. They willingly try to make each person fearful that they are not good enough, not smart enough, not pretty enough...the list goes on and on. I even made a link to the fact that the worse the global news was, the more intense these commercials were. The news had already made you fearful, now we are gonna tap it and make some money off of it. The more I did research, the sicker I got; but, the more awakened I had become. I dug deeper. The fear based control has always been there. It has been there through each government and religion for as far back as you care to look. (I do believe that most religions were fine until corrupt men got into power and perverted its original intent.The same can be said for governments.) There have been many prophets and teachers that have tried to teach humans to open their eyes. They have tried to teach love, compassion, understanding and acceptance. It is sad that most were killed for their beliefs or pushed aside and exploited.
Because we as a people are so bombarded by fear on a daily basis, I believe that it has entered into our very core of being. It is a conditioning for control. If I can keep you afraid of everyone and everything, I can keep you in control. If I can keep you afraid of your neighbor, I can keep you from talking to them, from sharing ideas, from caring. And, if I can keep you from caring about others, I can turn your innate need for caring towards yourself. I can make you feel better by caring solely for yourself. I have already made you afraid of everyone else, turning it towards yourself isn't any harder. Plus, any time I want to do something that I do not want you to know about, I can make a FEARFUl situation, get you focused on it and I go about my will. Don't believe me...look for yourself. Heck! I DON"T want you to believe just so YOU CAN go look for yourself. It is a recurring theme through history, only the tactics have been refined down to an art. And, from what I see it is only getting worse.

I am not against governments nor religions, I am saying that you need to understand that their power and control come from fear. And, until you can see this, your awakening cannot occur.

Thoughts

I have kept a personal journal since the age of 18. Many times, I have had so called trusted person read this, and try to use my own words, thoughts and feelings against me. Their own personal agendas and jealousies brought forward. Yet, even with all of that, I have always tried to keep one. I guard it closely, unwilling to trust others as I may have in the past. It is perhaps one of the reasons I found it difficult to share my writings over something as large as the Internet. From a young age, I have had many so called visions or dreams. I never really understood most of them. A lot of them I even called De Ja Vu as they came to pass. I had no clue that some of these visions or dreams were of events that were to take place at a later time. I kinda laugh because, in most of these dreams, dates and times do not tend to lend themselves to me. And, for the people and places that I see, I have to just take note and move on for I do not know these people or of the places seen. I have not had many people in my life believe in me or who I am. This, was a hard long process where I had to learn to believe in myself. It has taken me more than half my life to do this. Yet, with every step I took, I have always felt a larger than life presence...something higher, greater than anything imaginable. I tried all of the so called "churches" and "religions." I never left one book unopened, not one Pastor's brain unpicked. Too many times I found each telling me that I could not belong due to this or that, or that I was not allowed to believe this or that, or that I had to go through this person or that person before "God" would talk to me. Basically, I wasn't good enough. This simply isn't so! What I learned from all of my research, in all of the doctrine's is that we are ALL good enough just as we are. That we are all allowed to talk freely to out "God" or higher power, and that it doesn't matter about the steps we take to get there or by what name we call the all powerful as long as we get there.

It's in the air...

Have you ever thought that there had to be more to this life than the daily routine you go through? That you were meant for more? That there has to be something better than what you see and hear? I have, and I do almost every day. I do not believe that I am any diferent than anyone else searching for answers. What I have personally noticed though, is that I have been on a constant journey of awakening. That I am not alone in this spiritual awakening. I never thought of myself as having the courage to come forward and write about my journey, my thoughts and my insights. But, here I am. There has been a recurring theme in my life for over a year now, one that I must share what is being shared with me. With 2012 fast approaching and more people seeking answers, I thought that perhaps my few words, dreams or insights if you will should be shared. I understand that some may deem me crazy or insane...all I know is that I have this urgent need to get this out to as many people as possible. I can feel the change...it's in the air!